Reflection Journal Monday October 14 - Sunday October 20, 2024

 Monday October 14, 2024 

First of all I want to say Happy Thanksgiving!!!

I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving today. I wrote a Thanksgiving Acrostic Poem. I am going to Share it here. I hope you all enjoy my poem. 

Thanksgiving Acrostic Poem 2024

T is for Thanks,

And Hope,

Apples,

Nice Feelings,

Kind Thoughts,

Smiles,

Giving,

Interests,

Values,

Inspiration,

Nice Food

And being Grateful

Have A Happy Thanksgiving 

Today on Thanksgiving what did I do? Well I just stayed in and studied for my exam on Tuesday. 

Tuesday October 15, 2024

Today I made protein shakes. I also took some selfies after doing cooking. Here Are the Pictures of the selfies I took. 

I had my Excel exam at college and  I did a workout at the gym. After the gym I got Thai Food. Here are photos of the Thai Food. 

Well that is All to write for today. I hope you all had a really, really good and terrific Tuesday. I hope you all triumphed today.  

Wednesday October 16, 2024

Feeling shitty and crummy today. I had a boxing lesson and my boxing coach is livid at me. He doesnt think I am improving at boxing and I just feel like shit. He basically told me to get a new boxing coach. He just wants to get rid of me and hates me. Honestly I just feel like blowing off the lesson tomorrow. I will write more later after I stop crying. 

The Moonlight Fairy

The Moonlight Fairy sits outside in the darkness
on a rock
reflecting on life each and every day

Above her the stars
Are twinkling cheerfully
in the sky

And straight ahead sits the Moon
waiting and ready to just listen
to all the troubles and problems
The Moonlight Fairy has to share.

Okay I am posting two photos I took. 

I did 150 ABS today. I did 50 Sit Ups, 50 V-Sits and 50 Toes. Feeling too broken to go for a run today. I know it's my fault though. I brought this upon my self. 

Thursday October 17, 2024

Good morning all. I had a sleepless night. Well I actually slept on and off. I had to take Tylenol around 2am in the morning (or maybe it 1am or 3am...not totally sure) Only took two Tylenol. I also just felt like changing my profile photos on Instagram and Facebook To just a Black Picture. So all you see in my profile pics right now is Blackness. I feel like blowing off training today. It's not like coach wants me there anyways. What's the point. He will just yell at me a lot more. I feel like blowing off training in the evening as well. Just listening to music right now and drinking coffee. So I ended up doing Boxing this morning. When my coach asked how I was doing I actually couldn't say anything. I was holding back tears because I wanted to break down and cry again. Anyways class got canceled today which was unfortunate so I saw a friend instead. Before seeing a friend I made myself go for a run. Here are my running photos. 

I also ended up going to the fitness class in the evening as well. 

Friday October 18, 2024:

Good evening all. Still feeling like shit but maybe that's a good thing. Maybe I need to be chewed out so I can actually start putting in the work and improving. I need to be more disciplined. I did ABS today. I did 150 ABS. 50 Sit Ups, 50 V-Sits and 50 Bicycles. I also wrote a poem today. 

Under The Stars

 

In a trance

Focused

Memorized

In a state of flow

 

All alone outside in the forest, the beautiful lush green forest

Full of trees, like evergreens

And full of wildlife, like dainty deer

 

In a sparkly purple bluish dress

And with long beautiful blond hair flowing down

Is the Starlight Fairy

 

Like the magic

The Starlight Fairy

Dances under the twinkling stars

Attracting Butterflies fluttering all around her

 

It’s a special time to have

A moment to treasure forever and ever

For the Starlight Fairy 

I also went for a run in the rain. I was proud of myself for not pulling my phone out at all during the run tonight. 

I took this selfie after my run in the rain. 

honestly I don't know why I am writing this right now on my blog but I am. I feel like I am under constant punishment for not doing what coach expects of me. I feel like I am walking a very thin line at the moment. I feel like I need to prove myself to coach and just do what he expects of me no matter what. I feel like I need to start following the checklist daily. So thats why i am trying to be better at ABS and Running. I did ABS on Wednesday but not Thursday. And I did ABS today. I went for a run yesterday and today. I do know this isn't good enough i need to be doing ABS daily and running more often like three times a week or even more then that right now.