Tuesday August 12 and Wednesday August 13, 2025

 Tuesday August 12, 2025: Good morning all today has had its ups and downs. I had boxing and arrived late which isn't good. I had counseling and then I accepted a 2nd shift for Saturdays. I might have two shifts for Thursday as well but don't know yet. I had my resume and cover letter looked at and am now waiting for a new version of my cover letter. I went to the gym in the evening so that has been my day today. 

Wednesday August 13, 2025: Good Morning All. I will write more later. Well I have two shifts for tomorrow so that is good. And I made it to the gym this morning so that was good as well. 

Sunday August 10, 2025 and Monday August 11, 2025

 Sunday August 10, 2025

Good Morning All. I hope you all have a great Sunday today. Today I worked. After work I came home to my street to a disturbing scene. Police officers blocking off part of the street and police in the street with riefels pointing the riefels at a house trying to get someone to come out of the house. Scarry scene. I am not going to name the street due to confidentiality. 

Monday August 11, 2025

Good morning all. Happy Monday. I hope you all have an amazing Monday. Just finishing off this coffee before I head out to see a client. 

Plans for today

work 

beach

writing 

job search

laundry 

shower 

running 

pickleball 

Knitting/Sewing/Crochet/Spool Knitting? 

Plans for today

work

beach

writing

job search

laundry

shower

running

pickleball

study

organizing clothing in suitcase I picked up yesterday

Knitting/Sewing/Crochet/Spool Knitting?

Taking a break from knitting

Can't find my sewing recipet so cant sew

Saturday August 09, 2025

 Good Morning All. Just trying to write on here daily. I hope you all have a successful Saturday and get in some fitness and exercise today. 

Friday August 08, 2025

Good Morning All. Happy Friday. I hope you all have a Fantastic Friday. Please make sure to get in some fitness and exercise today. 

I just wanted to write that I am really enjoying posting long blog posts and just opening up about myself as well as about textiles activities as well. This blog has become more then just a textiles blog now. It's a blog I guess about me as a person and about who I am and what I want to do with my life as well as the dreams and goals I have. 

What else did I do today? I did laundry. And I also did Boxing. Feeling Better in Boxing. I don't have regret anymore. I told my boxing coach I had regret because I thought he would think differently of me. 

I just have to get rid of the drained feeling I have in my brain. All to write for today. 

Quotes I Like

• your strong to do anything 
• your strong enough to put your mind through it 

Thursday August 07, 2025

Good Morning all. Happy Thursday. I hope you all have a Terrific Thursday. Make sure to get some fitness and exercise in. I feel like I am going to be saying this every single day. 

So what did I do today?

Well this morning I printed out some journal entries I had written recently. I am thinking of self publishing a books of my journals at some point. I am not sure what the title of the books would be yet. Also next time I visit my parents on the mainland I will have to bring back my creative writing work with me. Next I worked for 2 hours with a client with down syndrome. That was fun. The client is super nice. I can't say more because of client confidentiality.

After work I came home and slept for a while.

Then I did some knitting. I am knitting a third red and blue Toque.

Next I applied for three jobs. One job is working in a veterinary clinic. The other two jobs are working in medical clinics.

Finally I went to the gym and did the high intensity boot camp class. Good class. I was the only one tonight.

That's all to write for now. I might add in more before the day is over. 

Just a selfie. I like taking selfies.

Wednesday August 06, 2025

 

Wednesday August 06, 2025

Self Reflection Journal

This morning I went to the gym. I was going to do the 6am class but decided to do the 7am class instead so I would have more time to get ready. I was feeling better at the gym and didn’t feel like breaking down and crying today but then again I wasn’t boxing. I did the high intensity boot camp class. Great Class. I pushed myself and tried my best. My left arm is feeling better so that is a good sign. I still have to take it easy but it's not bothering me like it was last week.

After going to the gym. I went home got changed into my bathing suite and then I went for a dip in the ocean. This time the water was very calm and quiet. I could see fish in the water and also crabs. This time I made sure to take water shoes. It was super cold being in the water but also super relaxing as well. I stayed in the water for 20 seconds this time and then did another quick dip in the water. I was in the water way longer then 20 seconds but 20 seconds with the water covering my shoulders.

I don't know if this is normal for people when they first start of doing cold ocean water dips but it is making me feel super tired afterwards right now to the point where I just want to crash and sleep. I am going to go to the ocean every week (a few times a week) and make myself get in the water and see how long I can stay in the water because this will be good for my body.

YouTube Links:

Great Blue Heron 

Crows

I am posting another entry down below. Please don't judge me or think differently about me. I just need to be more open and not hide who I am. 

Wednesday August 06, 2025

I see posts about people being honest and opening up about having Autism and ADHD (ADD) or being just diagnosed with either Autism or ADHD (ADD) or both all the time now. And it makes me feel that for my own mental and physical health journey I need to open up as well. I just don't want people to judge me or think differently about me. I also don't want people to think I am not smart because I am smart.

Anyways here is to me opening up. As a child I had speech therapy and I was diagnosed with a learning disability. I did get reassessed when I went to college in Ontario and I only have a learning disability in math.

Anyways going through life being told I would never be able to go to university has been challenging and struggling. I did try a year at Dalhousie university but realized it wasn't for me. And I realized I wanted to be working instead. I have still done way more than what my family and relatives thought I was capable of (I learned my family and relatives didn't have high hopes for me and that is always going to hurt my feelings even if I can never bring it up).

Also I suspect I might have had a stroke in my mother's womb after some clients of mine have asked me why I only talk from one side of my mouth.

Anyways I am a 3 time college graduate. I have a Recreation Therapy (Therapeutic Recreation) Certificate and Diploma. I enjoyed studying Recreation Therapy but the program didn’t lead me to a career. It just led me to further education. I also have a Health Care Assistant Certificate and a Medical Office Administration Certificate. I also have a Traffic Control Person Certificate. The Traffic Control Person Certificate isn’t college related but I wanted to mention it anyways. So that is super cool and I think I am doing well for myself. I work in home care and am looking for a job in a medical clinic.

I do boxing and weight training and running. I try to eat healthy so I won't have depression. I knit, crochet, sew, paint, write, play ukulele and flute. I have dreams of starting a fashion business. I enjoy the outdoors and all sports and fitness.

So despite having life long struggles like a learning disability I am doing well. I just need to work on a few things like being more organized, time management, managing my emotions (I think I am more likely to have depression and stress because of my learning disability. That’s just my thoughts though and it might not be true.)  and communication as well as getting out and meeting new people and making new friends.

Anyways please don't judge me as I don't like opening up about things like this.

 

Tuesday August 05, 2025

Self Reflection Journal

Question on my mind: Will the coach view me differently because of my disability?

First thing in the morning I did a bit of knitting. I am working on knitting a cardigan. I took some photos and videos. I posted them to other Facebook pages I have. I will post the finished project on my Boxing Page if it turns out.

Here is something I have to admit. Sometimes I knit for too long when I know I should be doing other things like doing ABS, Physio and Going for Runs. I also spend too much time on my Computer watching YouTube Videos and realize spending too much time on my computer is making me lonely when I should be getting out into the world and meeting new people and making new friends.

Today I did Boxing. I almost broke down in Boxing. I wanted to break down and cry. I was feeling awkward and had regret after opening up to my Boxing Coach about life long struggles (but hey that has made me a fighter since day 1. And that means I will always be a fighter outside of the boxing ring). I admitted that I felt awkward and had regret opening up and then I told him I couldn't look at him when he wanted me to look him in the eyes because I felt like crying and I knew if I did look at him I would break down and cry and probably not be able to stop. Anyways it's going to be tough at the gym for the next little while.

I also went for a dip in the ocean. The ocean water was pretty wavy today and not at all quiet or calm but that didn’t stop me from going into the water. I kept on going into the water and then coming out. Finally I filmed myself going in and getting all wet. I stayed in for like probably 10 seconds for the first time. I need to do this all the time for my body. My plan is to do another ocean dip tomorrow and try to stay in the water a bit longer like 20 seconds in the water or longer. I am a wimp when it comes to cold water. When I was a child I would get in the water at the beach right away but now I take my time to get in the water. And tomorrow I am taking water shoes because I cut my foot on a rock in the water and it was bleeding.

I also went to the high intensity boot camp class in the evening. I still didn’t really want to be at the high intensity boot camp class but I went anyways. And I tried my best. All to write for today. 

YouTube Links:

Knitting A Red and Blue Toque WIN 20250805 06 35 18 Pro 

doing the ocean - YouTube (It was supposed to say dipping in the ocean)

Monday August 04, 2025

Good morning all and Happy Monday. Happy BC Day. I hope you all are able to make Monday Marvelous, Motivational and Magical. I hope you can all Make A Difference Today and also Make The World A Better Place. Hopefully you all get in some fitness today as well. It's important to Move Your Body On A Daily Basis. 

What Did I Do Today? 

• I worked from 06:30 to 08:30 AM. 
• I went to Mount Douglas Park. I took took a dip in the ocean. 
• I went to Oreganos Pizza and bought a medium Oreganos Special 
• I Went for a run 
• I did some knitting. I Started Knitting Red And Blue Knitted Toque 3. 

Sunday August 03rd, 2025

 Good Morning All. Happy Sunday. I hope your Sunday is Successful. I hope that you all use your skills, and strengths and shine your light today. 

I myself am really into self reflection and sometimes after tough days I will sit down and write journals about what happened. I call these journals self reflection journals. Anyways I am writing down some self reflection questions you can all think about. 

Reflection Questions 

• How can you make Sundays Successful? 
• How can you use your Skills? 
• How can you use your Strengths? 
• How can you Shine Your Light? 

Today I worked from 0630 to 830 and also from 1130 to 130. I got asked if I could take a shift in Vancouver and I said no way. I thought that was the most ridiculous request ever. All to write for today.

Saturday August 02nd, 2025

Good Morning all. Happy Saturday. I hope you all have a very Successful Saturday. Take the time today to use Your Skills and Strengths. Also take the time to Shine Your Light and be a Shining Star. Make sure to get in some Fitness and Exercise as well. 

I just finished Knitting Red And Blue Toque 2. Now I need to stitch up Red And Blue Toque 2.

I will write more later.

So I worked today. At work I tried to entertain my client with my harmonica but she wasn't down for that. After work I lay low at home. I ended up breaking down and crying today. I don't want to say why. Lets just say I have not been feeling good since opening up on Friday to my Boxing Coach. I am nervous about Boxing on Tuesday.  

Red And Blue Knitted Toque 2

Red And Blue Knitted Toque 2

Red And Blue Knitted Toque 2

Red And Blue Knitted Toque 2

Red And Blue Knitted Toque 2

Start Of A Red And Blue Knitted Toque

Friday August 01, 2025

Good Morning All. Happy Friday. I Hope You all have a Fantastic Friday today. 

Questions To Self Reflect Upon:

• How Can You Make Fridays Fantastic? 
• How Can You Be Focused On Fridays? 
• What Fitness Can You Get In On Fridays? 

This morning I went to the gym and did the High Intensity Boot Camp Class. After the gym I had Physio. When I got back to the house unfortunately I saw one of the roommates mothers who is staying over at the house and I hate to say it I feel uncomfortable that the mother is staying at house and want nothing to do with her. I am sure she is a nice person. But I don't want to have to talk to her. She was even trying to wash my dishes and I am like just leave my dishes alone. And then she was mopping the floor and because of her I almost slipped and hurt myself. Why couldn't she flipping mop the floor after I left the house. I feel annoyed that the roommate always leaves the door open when she leaves the house. I am fed up every time I get up the door is wide open and when I leave and come back to the house the door is wide open. I wish she would shut the door when she leaves the house. How hard is that to ask? Then Back at home I did Meal Prep. I did Boxing today. Not a great session today and it makes me feel pissed off at myself. I did open up about things and now I feel like its going to be awkward when I am boxing next. I am now at home and feeling very drained and emotional right now. I need to let myself feel these emotions. I dont even feel up to working for DoorDash tonight. 

See Updated Entry Down Below: 

Friday August 01, 2025

Self Reflection Journal Entry

So today I did Boxing. I arrived to the gym a bit late like I always do. I need to stop arriving to the gym.

The Boxing lesson was not a great session today and it makes me feel pissed off at myself.

I did Skipping for 3 rounds. And then I made the mistake of saying that my arm was still sore so I didn’t end up doing speed bag work or foot work or shadow boxing as my boxing coach made me do a ton of exercises for my arm. He did let me throw punches.

After the session I did open up about things. I finally opened up to the struggles I have been facing all my life and the struggles that I will always face. I opened up that I have a learning disability and that I possibly had a stroke before I was born and to the fact that I will never be able to get a degree from university.

And now I feel like its going to be awkward when I am boxing next and right now I regret opening up to my Boxing Coach.

I am now at home and feeling very drained and emotional right now. I need to let myself feel these emotions. I don’t even feel up to working for DoorDash tonight. 

Thursday July 31, 2025

Good morning all. Happy Thursday. I hope you all have a terrific Thursday. I hope Thursday is also Triumphant for you as well. 

What I Have Done Today

I Submitted three job applications so far today so I feel happy about that.
I made an appointment for Tuesday to go over my Cover Letter and Resume
I made a Physio Appointment for Tomorrow.
I am doing laundry.
I did a bit of knitting.
I Submitted A Poem To a Poetry Magazine. 
I posted a Dress for sale. A Purple Dress. I got it from a friend but it isn't my style.
I made a cup of Chai Tea.
I started writing novel #4.
I went to the gym and did the High Intensity Boot Camp Class. I definitely feel that I have Tennis Elbow.